How is it that we can connect with people all over the world using internet and phones, something that was unheard of not long ago, and not be fascinated by the technology every time we use it? Why do those miraculous things wear off and become a normal part of life; and even annoy us if the connection is slightly slower than usual?
I often feel guilty that I am not more excited by my own life, which one of my mom’s friends in the U.S. deemed to be just like a movie (I think that movie would be called Casablanca….) I am no longer impressed by the fact that both my boyfriend and I have jobs in the same city, exactly where we both wanted to be. Instead, I am frustrated by my commute to work, how far his apartment is from mine, and that I don’t really like his kitchen. I spent months longing to be more involved in my church, and what’s more, to improve my level of French to the point where I would be able to understand sermons and bible study. Yesterday I was at an event at church and understood all of it, but was bored with the topic and wanted to leave. So what’s wrong? Am I taking God’s gifts for granted? Have I forgotten about what is important?
This weekend, in need of spiritual guidance, I discovered the text of a sermon by the pastor at the Rabat International Church about this very topic (http://rabatchurch.org/sermons/everything’s-amazing-and-nobody’s-impressed/). He wrote that we can’t always be impressed by everything or expect everything to always go right; that would be exhausting. But if we are making an effort to learn and grow, we’ll have those moments where we realize how wonderful things can be and are truly thankful for what we have.
I certainly don’t feel thankful when I wake up at 5:30am, when a child coughs in my face and I know I’m going to get another cold, or when the tram lines are down and I’m already late for something. But there are also the moments when I go for runs in perfect whether, when I can’t help but laugh with my students, or when I drink avocado juice outside on a Saturday afternoon. I guess I can’t always be impressed or even totally thankful, but I do need to remember that I still have plenty of those good moments.